Father, Dad, Daddy, I want to know you as that, I want to come and sit on your lap.
I want you to wrap your arms around me and tell me all is well.
I want to please you and do as you ask, but I can’t hear you. I think I can, I do what I think you have asked but, it seems it’s the wrong thing to do.
I know that you are a good good father. You have blessed me in so many ways.
I had a good mom and a good dad although I felt I’d been brought up unloved.
I could of travelled a road of drug addiction, theft, bullying and sadness but you had other plans for me. You told me I was better than that.
I went and served as a caring person to those in a vulnerable state, you blessed my work and my relationships then again I went along the wrong path.
You blessed me again to my dad and showed me how it could be, a family unit I always wanted.
It was destroyed by evil then bad things began to happen, I turned back to the path of destruction.
I was lying there on the bathroom floor, the toilet bleach curdling in my stomach, found incoherent with foam at my mouth, you saved me from death.
I found love in a lost soul and a little one, a family I could call my own. Evil came again. Smashed my joy to pieces on the floor, but You saved me yet again!
You showed me my strength as I walked away, I found a job that you blessed and Independence all of my own, the years I lost to bruises and battery you gave me back in freedom and fun.
Happy again I met another love, that wasn’t to be, evil struck again and took him away, Back to the patch of destruction for me.
Another weak soul, just as lonely I found, we sat and drank the feelings away. I destroyed independence, my weaknesses revealed I was cheated and lied to and left on my knees.
Again you shine, you showed me my strength and gave me authority to walk away. All those years lonely you gave to me back, fun and freedom again was mine to be had.
Then along came my soul mate, as lost as I was we built up each other and strengthened our souls when you saw it fit we then became 3.
Along came our gift,a bundle of joy, our very own little baby boy. The family we longed you blessed us with and we were happy again once more.
Just a few month down the line again it was time, for another blessing of joy, here was another missing piece to our puzzle another beautiful baby boy.
Father, your love is so good, we are so blessed beyond, carefully and wonderfully made.
To become like your son in the image of Christ, our job here on earth is to shine.
I pray when it’s time you prompt us to rise, and do all you planned us to do.
Until it arrives father I ask for your guides to help me to be who you planned.
The world made me hard, my heart longs to unwind, and soften just as you planned. I ask for your voice to echo in my mind as I walk through each day with your love.
I thank you o lord, you are my special guide and love me, as me that you made. I don’t need to compete, I am who you planned, unique and special to you.