Reviewing the Restricted.

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I had unfollowed and restricted all of the people that were bugging me on dreaded social media, sat on the sofa getting more and more angry, holding back the tears, I typed out a text very quickly signed with an angry faced emoji to my friend telling her all about it.

The reply I received not only made me smile it was filled with wisdom and sent a very well known and irritating song spinning around my mind, “If I knew were coming I’d of baked a cake, baked a cake, If I knew you were coming I’d of baked a cake!”

A situation with some other friends (and use the term loosely) that had been ongoing and had once again something had happened to provoke negativity. I was feeling hurt, angry bitter, let down and rejected, the words to my dear friend were ” I wish God would just take it away, I don’t like feeling this way.”

Her response was spot on and the some of the best wisdom I’ve ever had. Firstly, I needed to repent for any negative feelings toward the people involved then, rebuke satan’s lies in the name of Jesus, accept God’s forgiveness, pray for the people involved and ask that God open their eyes, thank God that I am walking in freedom and receive His perfect peace, she described it as a cake recipe! (Hence the well known, irritating song!)

My next move was to get off the sofa and go into my room, close the door behind me and to pray to the Father, my words were:

Father, please forgive me for negativity towards these people, I’m sorry but my heart feels heavy and burdened, I’m tired of their attitudes, and I’m sad that I’ve been pushed away, I’m hurt that they no longer want me, I’m surplus to requirements and they are getting on with life without me, or at least that’s how I see it.

Lord, I know these are lies from satan and you came so that I may have peace, I rebuke these ill feelings in Jesus name, I feel so hurt, please help me, I don’t want this burdensome heavy heart, I want your perfect peace, I want to be filled with joy, love and kindness, please release me from this weight, what they do has no bearing on my actions, nor does it dictate who I am in your eyes, I know that you love me for who you made me, you have a plan for me that has nothing to do with this nonsense….

….Then BANG … It came to me….

Father, you can’t use me with this heavy burdened heart, can you? You’re teaching me, aren’t you? Teaching me to overcome things, love people that are difficult, see beyond my own opinion,  love without rival, teaching me to learn how to see other people beyond their actions!

Proverbs 17:17 in the NLT says: A Friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in the time of need.

Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary: 17. No change of outward circumstances should abate our affection for our friends or relatives. But no friend, except Christ, deserves unlimited confidence. In Him, this text did receive, and still receives its most glorious fulfilment

So, in a nutshell, my reaction to my friend’s actions is completely my choice, the fact that I’d gone on to social media and restricted all of the people that made me feel this way was ridiculous, I have a choice!

I am most happy when I’m being kind, considerate and caring, giving encouragement, kind words and loving people is what I do best. But, here I was bittering and hardening my own heart, not to mention anything else I was worn out, it’s hard work being that angry! I remember reading somewhere that negative energy makes you ill and that is just how I felt.

Our wonderful God wants me to love people despite how they make me feel, Jesus had to contend with much more than I do, how must he have felt when Peter denied Him, or when he asked the disciples to stay awake and pray and they fell to sleep?

What if I get treated like a doormat God?

Psalm 28:3 Says– Do not drag me away with the wicked–with those who do evil–those who speak friendly words to their neighbours while planning evil in their hearts.

Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary 28:1-5 David is very earnest in prayer.Observe his faith in prayer; God is my rock, on whom I build my hope. Believers should not rest till they have received some token that their prayers are heard. He prays that he may not be numbered with the wicked. Save me from being entangled in the snares they have laid for me. Save me from being infected with their sins, and from doing as they do. Lord, never leave me to use such arts of deceit and treachery for my safety, as they use for my ruin.

And there it was, a prayer for me to pray to the Lord our God for help and protection in my time of need, He will fight my battles, I don’t need to worry how they may treat me, all I need to do is be the person I enjoy being, the person that my beautiful Father made me to be, the person that spreads light, love and laughter without effort, the one that enjoys blessing and loving others, the person that brings great glory to the name of God our Father, Jesus His son and the Holy Spirit.

In conclusion, when satan comes knocking on the door and starts to whisper his lies into your mind remember to sing “If I knew you were coming I’d of baked a cake, baked a cake, If I knew you were coming I’d of baked a cake!” smile then follow these simple steps:

  1. Repent for any bad feelings.
  2. Rebuke the lies of satan in Jesus name.
  3. Accept forgiveness from God.
  4. Pray for the people you’re angry at.
  5. Thank God for His Perfect Peace.

 

 

 

I have all that I need.

I love this scripture, when my husband and I first found Christ this was a portion of scripture that we studied at a life group and it really stuck in to our minds. They are words that we held on to whilst developing and growing in trust for God to take over, there were of course times we questioned many things but we reverted back to this scripture we have all that we need.

No matter how dark a day may seem, when we think about what we need it soon becomes apparent that we have it all. Is our heart beating? Yes. Are we still breathing? Yes. Even if we have lost all of our material things we can still live, and if we choose to take these words literally and trust God we will have much more. He will work for us, with what we have, where we are at. We just have to trust him.

Think about it, what is we actually, really and truly need? There are probably many things that we want, but there is a huge difference between needing and wanting. A need is a vital source, and want is a desire. And if we are prepared to live with all that we need and trust God he will give us many things that we want. The bible tells us so: Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Psalm 37:4

My prayer today is that you let the lord intercede, give him everything, invite him in and ask for his wisdom in Jesus name, Amen.

Open Doors

How do we know when or if to walk through a door of opportunity?


How do we know when or if to walk through a door of opportunity?

When I was first saved I had many plans, mainly for myself I admit, I was going to build a huge marketing agency and earn lots of money, well it wasn’t quite that shallow but all the same I had BIG plans.

I was stopped completely in my tracks by the Lord and I entered a period of stillness, at the time I thought this was laziness, all of my creative faculties started to shut down and I found that I couldn’t think, all I could do was turn to the word God and discover.

I soon started to discover Who I was, Why I was here, and What I needed to do, BUT, I had no idea how that fitted into my previous plans. So there I was, still wandering in the wilderness with no direction, no inspiration and no creativity.

I wasn’t listening! God asked me to start to delve into my old plans and compare them to the discoveries I had made about WHO He said I was, WHY I was here and WHAT I was sent to do.

I soon discovered a pattern, a very unique pattern. It was unique because this pattern was displayed in all I had done my whole life, from a tender age of nursery school right up to this present point in my life. Those business plans I had were NOT about making myself money, they were about helping others to achieve their goals, from the customers I served to the staff I had planned to employ, each element was about other people and how I could help them to achieve what they wanted.

Proverbs 16:9, tells us that In our hearts we plan our course, but the Lord establishes the steps.

No wonder there was a pattern, it wasn’t the actual industry, job, or physical task that would be my calling, it’s what that physical thing would enable me to do in the name of Jesus. I was sent to encourage, inspire and teach people that through Christ we can achieve all things!

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.- Proverbs 37:4

Once I discovered this I soon started to recognise doors that began to open, not just in my business but at home, in my marriage, in my husband’s business, at church, with my friends, even this blog. I just had to be courageous enough to step out and say what I knew God wanted me to say or do what He wanted me to do.We just have to be bold enough and brave enough to walk through that open door. 

Receiving this courage comes from renewing our minds with His Word, it’s there to give us confidence that in Him all things are possible. He tells us in John 10:10 I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly. He doesn’t want us to be miserable!

1 Corinthians 16:9 because a great door for effective work has opened to me, and there are many who oppose me.

The words above from Paul tell us that it won’t be a smooth ride, but irrespective of the opposition he faced, he continued to move on, continued to walk with God and live out what he knew in confidence the Lord wanted him to do.

Since these revelations, I’ve been so much more comfortable in my life with making decisions, and when I make those that are aligned with God’s will he confirms I’m on the right track with His wonderful favour, I feel peaceful and joyful inside and I have a consistent smile on my face. Life is just easier with God’s word in it. Life is just easier with God in it!

My prayer today is that anyone that may be struggling with their calling in life, or recognising God’s open doors, that they feel the spirit of God fall upon them to inspire action.

I pray, Father that each and every person that is questioning a decision right now, that they feel your presence, they hear your voice and you give them courage and confidence in you and your word.

I ask you, Father, to reveal to them their calling in life, give them desires in their hearts that won’t let go until they act upon them, and when they do Lord I ask for fulfilment, comfort and peace to outpour into their spirit.

Lord I pray that they seek your will and glorify your name by living a life filled with abundant joy.

In Jesus name, Amen.

 

 

 

 

You can’t earn it.


 “Long ago the LORD said to Israel: “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.” – ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭31:3‬ ‭NLT‬‬

When I became a Christian an inner transformation started to take place, I knew that I fell short of the character God wanted me to have, I knew I needed to be a better person, turn my back on my old life and walk courageously into my new one. 

But how? 

How could I be a better person? He knew I’d tried, I was at all of the church meetings, I was the first to volunteer my time, I worked for charities in my ‘spare’ time, I donated my money, I blessed people with things they might need, why was I still not changing from within?

I’d get frustrated then and I would give up on myself. After a bad day I’d turn to alcohol, open a bottle of wine whilst cooking dinner, which would quite often turn in to 2 bottles, think over all of the naff things that had happened through the day, pity myself and beat myself up. Then, this would turn in to anger which caused friction in my marriage, because I was frustrated with myself I’d be frustrated with my husband and kids too, and there it was a nice big destructive cycle. 

Along comes the guilt and I wouldn’t be able to sleep, I’d be writing destructive things about myself in my journal, I’d be telling myself how horrible I was, and the next day I’d be back to the feet of Jesus on my knees the next day asking why?

After a while, once I was prepared to listen, He started to reveal to me why this was, in my heart I heard, “you can NOT earn my love, it’s a gift, you must accept it.” Look what it says here, God tells us I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.” – ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭31:3‬ ‭NLT‬‬

God already HAS given us His love, we didn’t DO anything for it He just DOES. No matter how hard I try, no matter what good works I do I can not earn His love.

It doesn’t work like it does in the world, you meet someone and fall a little bit in love with them and as the days, weeks, months and years go by you fall deeper and deeper. No, not with God, He loved us before we were born.

No matter how rubbish I feel about me, He loves me, That’s ace! His grace is covering me, and that helps me to live aligned to His will. 

Now I know this I’m so joyful, joyful because I have God in my life, I don’t falter because I’m too joyful, I’ve no need to dislike myself in the way that I used to, not only does God love me more than I can possibly imagine, He has given me the ability to love me too, and I accept that I am made in His image, I carry godlike character within me to help to radiate His love to the world, how amazing is that?

Now I don’t have bad days at work, and when I do God shows me why and that it’s not a bad thing, He has given me grace of my own to forgive people that may cause me offence, He has given me patience to deal with situations that used to frustrate me, and because I don’t have bad days I don’t turn to destructive behaviour like drinking. Because I don’t drink so much in frustration, I don’t loose my temper so much, because I don’t loose my temper so much I don’t feel guilty and because I don’t feel guilty all the time I can actually feel joyful!

Each and everyday I thank God for His intervention and live a very blessed life. We really are loved beyond our own comprehension, we can’t earn more of our Fathers love, once we have this revelation things will change, they have for me and pray they do for you too. He loved us first. Amen. 💕💕

Living with Peace and Joy.


You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever. – Psalms‬ ‭16:11‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I’m always in awe of what our good Lord does for us day by day, from the smallest of things to the big that we face He is interested in everything to do with our life.

I remember one day, I was rushing around first thing in the morning, as per usual. Any of you guys responsible for young children will know that to have two boys aged 4 and 5 mornings are well and truly manic! 

We had gone through the motions of eating breakfast, getting dressed, brushing teeth, putting on shoes, finding school bags – all of which have to have the instructions repeated at least 5 times before the task is completed and we’re finally in the car on the way to school when suddenly, I remembered my eldest was told he should take in an old sock, already running late and no time to turn back I started to panic, I’m always forgetting stuff like that and feel like the worlds worst mom then, to top it off that particular day I couldn’t drop one back at school later as I was out at meetings all day. We pulled up on the car park and I broke the news, it was received as I thought it would be, the bottom lip started to quiver and eyes began to fill up, I started to feel the descent of guilt when a thought dropped in to my mind from the Holy Spirit – “check the boot”

For months previous I had been collecting socks and coats for the homeless, a few weeks earlier I’d given the coats to a charity and a huge bag full of socks to a family near to our church, I got out of the car and opened the boot – what do you think I found there? Yep, underneath the shopping bags, toys, walking boots and other junk I insist on driving around with in the boot, one lonely old sock! Praise God! 

This is such a small testimony but no less significant to how much God wants to be involved in my life. He knew I would need that sock, He knew how bad a mother I would feel, He knew how hectic the morning would be, He knew how upset my boy would be at not having one and He intervened right on time. 

This is just a small example of how much I love having Jesus present in my life at all times. This is why each and every morning I ask him to intervene in all I do, I ask Him to overtake me, because He knows what is planned much better than I do. I go to Him with all of my needs, I ask Him to intervene in my children’s lives, He can guide them much better that I can, He knows what they face, He knows what the plan is for them. 

I live each and everyday with peace in my heart, knowing that my family is taken care of and we are wrapped in His perfect love and protection so live in peace and hold joy in our hearts all of the time. 

To live this way is super powerful, nothing can drag us down, the world looks upon us and they wonder “why is she so happy all of the time?” The answer is I’m not happy all of the time, being happy is to do with things happening, I am joyful and that’s powerful, being joyful is a state of mind, being content is having balance in life, knowing I have an all knowing, all loving God watching over me has me live in such a way that I just happen to radiate His love and that is why I invite Him in to take control of all that we do.

The good news is…..

One of my common behaviour patterns is positivity, another is the activator. So translated I am always looking on the bright side of life and I like to get things done, so when I am around someone that can’t make a decision and when they do they pluck out the negative in a situation it frustrates me!

The good news is our precious Father left us with The Bible filled with fabulous news.

 I remember a conversation I had with my mom who was struggling one day to understand the death and morbidity in the world, she said to me “If God so loves us, why do we have to see all this pain and suffering in the world?” 

My answer to that is simple. 

We are in the world not of the world, Jesus told us it wouldn’t be easy, but what is promised to us is eternal life, not only that, John 10:10 tells us he came so that we might live a life of abundance and joy. 

I often wonder how I can repay Jesus for the sacrifice He gave for me to live and love life. There is absolutely nothing compared to it, there is nothing I can do, apart from live as he instructs me to, fearlessly and with confidence knowing that he goes before me and is behind me – and that is my answer to dealing with worldly trauma.

I know I have a God of peace, that is consistently intervening with my life, so that I may enjoy his perfect will, as long as my mind is fixed upon this nothing can bring me down!