You can’t earn it.


 “Long ago the LORD said to Israel: “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.” – ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭31:3‬ ‭NLT‬‬

When I became a Christian an inner transformation started to take place, I knew that I fell short of the character God wanted me to have, I knew I needed to be a better person, turn my back on my old life and walk courageously into my new one. 

But how? 

How could I be a better person? He knew I’d tried, I was at all of the church meetings, I was the first to volunteer my time, I worked for charities in my ‘spare’ time, I donated my money, I blessed people with things they might need, why was I still not changing from within?

I’d get frustrated then and I would give up on myself. After a bad day I’d turn to alcohol, open a bottle of wine whilst cooking dinner, which would quite often turn in to 2 bottles, think over all of the naff things that had happened through the day, pity myself and beat myself up. Then, this would turn in to anger which caused friction in my marriage, because I was frustrated with myself I’d be frustrated with my husband and kids too, and there it was a nice big destructive cycle. 

Along comes the guilt and I wouldn’t be able to sleep, I’d be writing destructive things about myself in my journal, I’d be telling myself how horrible I was, and the next day I’d be back to the feet of Jesus on my knees the next day asking why?

After a while, once I was prepared to listen, He started to reveal to me why this was, in my heart I heard, “you can NOT earn my love, it’s a gift, you must accept it.” Look what it says here, God tells us I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.” – ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭31:3‬ ‭NLT‬‬

God already HAS given us His love, we didn’t DO anything for it He just DOES. No matter how hard I try, no matter what good works I do I can not earn His love.

It doesn’t work like it does in the world, you meet someone and fall a little bit in love with them and as the days, weeks, months and years go by you fall deeper and deeper. No, not with God, He loved us before we were born.

No matter how rubbish I feel about me, He loves me, That’s ace! His grace is covering me, and that helps me to live aligned to His will. 

Now I know this I’m so joyful, joyful because I have God in my life, I don’t falter because I’m too joyful, I’ve no need to dislike myself in the way that I used to, not only does God love me more than I can possibly imagine, He has given me the ability to love me too, and I accept that I am made in His image, I carry godlike character within me to help to radiate His love to the world, how amazing is that?

Now I don’t have bad days at work, and when I do God shows me why and that it’s not a bad thing, He has given me grace of my own to forgive people that may cause me offence, He has given me patience to deal with situations that used to frustrate me, and because I don’t have bad days I don’t turn to destructive behaviour like drinking. Because I don’t drink so much in frustration, I don’t loose my temper so much, because I don’t loose my temper so much I don’t feel guilty and because I don’t feel guilty all the time I can actually feel joyful!

Each and everyday I thank God for His intervention and live a very blessed life. We really are loved beyond our own comprehension, we can’t earn more of our Fathers love, once we have this revelation things will change, they have for me and pray they do for you too. He loved us first. Amen. 💕💕

Living with Peace and Joy.


You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever. – Psalms‬ ‭16:11‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I’m always in awe of what our good Lord does for us day by day, from the smallest of things to the big that we face He is interested in everything to do with our life.

I remember one day, I was rushing around first thing in the morning, as per usual. Any of you guys responsible for young children will know that to have two boys aged 4 and 5 mornings are well and truly manic! 

We had gone through the motions of eating breakfast, getting dressed, brushing teeth, putting on shoes, finding school bags – all of which have to have the instructions repeated at least 5 times before the task is completed and we’re finally in the car on the way to school when suddenly, I remembered my eldest was told he should take in an old sock, already running late and no time to turn back I started to panic, I’m always forgetting stuff like that and feel like the worlds worst mom then, to top it off that particular day I couldn’t drop one back at school later as I was out at meetings all day. We pulled up on the car park and I broke the news, it was received as I thought it would be, the bottom lip started to quiver and eyes began to fill up, I started to feel the descent of guilt when a thought dropped in to my mind from the Holy Spirit – “check the boot”

For months previous I had been collecting socks and coats for the homeless, a few weeks earlier I’d given the coats to a charity and a huge bag full of socks to a family near to our church, I got out of the car and opened the boot – what do you think I found there? Yep, underneath the shopping bags, toys, walking boots and other junk I insist on driving around with in the boot, one lonely old sock! Praise God! 

This is such a small testimony but no less significant to how much God wants to be involved in my life. He knew I would need that sock, He knew how bad a mother I would feel, He knew how hectic the morning would be, He knew how upset my boy would be at not having one and He intervened right on time. 

This is just a small example of how much I love having Jesus present in my life at all times. This is why each and every morning I ask him to intervene in all I do, I ask Him to overtake me, because He knows what is planned much better than I do. I go to Him with all of my needs, I ask Him to intervene in my children’s lives, He can guide them much better that I can, He knows what they face, He knows what the plan is for them. 

I live each and everyday with peace in my heart, knowing that my family is taken care of and we are wrapped in His perfect love and protection so live in peace and hold joy in our hearts all of the time. 

To live this way is super powerful, nothing can drag us down, the world looks upon us and they wonder “why is she so happy all of the time?” The answer is I’m not happy all of the time, being happy is to do with things happening, I am joyful and that’s powerful, being joyful is a state of mind, being content is having balance in life, knowing I have an all knowing, all loving God watching over me has me live in such a way that I just happen to radiate His love and that is why I invite Him in to take control of all that we do.

The good news is…..

One of my common behaviour patterns is positivity, another is the activator. So translated I am always looking on the bright side of life and I like to get things done, so when I am around someone that can’t make a decision and when they do they pluck out the negative in a situation it frustrates me!

The good news is our precious Father left us with The Bible filled with fabulous news.

 I remember a conversation I had with my mom who was struggling one day to understand the death and morbidity in the world, she said to me “If God so loves us, why do we have to see all this pain and suffering in the world?” 

My answer to that is simple. 

We are in the world not of the world, Jesus told us it wouldn’t be easy, but what is promised to us is eternal life, not only that, John 10:10 tells us he came so that we might live a life of abundance and joy. 

I often wonder how I can repay Jesus for the sacrifice He gave for me to live and love life. There is absolutely nothing compared to it, there is nothing I can do, apart from live as he instructs me to, fearlessly and with confidence knowing that he goes before me and is behind me – and that is my answer to dealing with worldly trauma.

I know I have a God of peace, that is consistently intervening with my life, so that I may enjoy his perfect will, as long as my mind is fixed upon this nothing can bring me down!

Walking in alignment with God.

Over the last six to seven months, many things have been manifesting in our family life, things that have been a real challenge, we had some big decisions to make, and if I’m honest I could have quite happily remained paralysed on occasions, stuck in the same old, the fear was just too much to face.

walking-inOver the last six to seven months, many things have been manifesting in our family life, things that have been a real challenge, we had some big decisions to make, and if I’m honest I could have quite happily remained paralysed on occasions, stuck in the same old, the fear was just too much to face.

Lucky for us we have a God that will deal with our fears head on when we seek His perfect Will for our lives.

Knowing there were changes to make we started to pray over the situations causing the challenges, we prayed long and hard for what seemed like forever! There were times I thought God wasn’t listening, there were times I thought He didn’t like me much, there were many moments I prayed with what my mom might call attitude, you know the stance – when your arms are folded, your bottom lip is sticking out and you have that tone in voice, the tone that says, I know you don’t want to answer my prayer and I know it’s for my own good but all the same I’m asking anyway, with an eye roll and a big TUT at the end?!

Despite sometimes wanting to give up we continued.

After around 5 months, we started to get answers, albeit they weren’t the ones we thought we would get. These answers were going to push us out of our comfort zone and were to have us confront fears we had carried with us most of our lives. In actual fact these answers had been there for some time, we just didn’t think they were from God, they seemed to make perfect sense but we thought they were of the flesh not of God. He was showing us that we had done the right thing and He wanted the best for us, He loved us and wanted us to flourish for the glory of His Kingdom.

I thought that a lot of the complications we had were a result of our own flesh, I thought that I had a hardened heart and it was my actions causing all of this discomfort. As a result, I was seeking His will, for all that time, to help me to change, when in actual fact what God wanted to do was to change the situation for us.

Although this wasn’t going to be easy. It meant we had to do some things that would cause some discomfort, face our fears and be courageous. See, this was one of the many problems I grew up with, always thinking I must try harder, and blaming myself for not being good enough. Which I think is a problem in many of us, I certainly share that with my husband.

The good news is our loving Father doesn’t want that, he wants us to love ourselves just as he loves us. We are fearfully and wonderfully made, in His image, for a very unique purpose to bring glory to His Kingdom. This, in turn, gives us the ability to love others with His wonderful love and encouragement, and when we really seek His will for our lives He uncovers some miraculous things for our future, things we least expect – But, we have to action them.

Even though this time was tough and I could have quite easily turned my back on everything, buried my head in the sand and left myself wide open for the enemy to take control, I chose to take back His territory and declare that in Jesus name I would walk on – No matter what!

Things can be hard, but as long as we continue to lean on our Father and rely not upon our own understanding all things will come together for good, no matter how awful it may seem we must trust him in all we do.

I’m very happy to report that is all now behind us and these situations are now testimonies we can use to encourage others as well as ourselves, we can hold on to them for the rest of our days and remind ourselves when struggles arise that He came through and took control, showed us what to do, and in our obedience, He has richly blessed us with many things to confirm we did the right thing.

Thank you, Lord, for your wonderful patience and understanding, Father, thank you, that despite our not listening, You always persevere and show us in you loving gentle way that all will be ok. Thank you, for always being there, and preparing the way for us despite our shortcomings and our disobedience, Lord thank you, for always waiting with your arms wide open for us to arrive, no matter how long that may take. In Jesus name, I pray that we will forever be aligned to your perfect will. Amen.

Take a different perspective.

When issues arise we often find that pride and opinions disturb our peace,  we get so caught up in all the he said, she said malarkey then, start to dig up bad feeling, resentment and begin to feel offended.

These negative feeings only come to kill, steal and destroy! There is another option: 

So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor – ‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭5:6‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Choosing to humble ourselves and give these burdens to Him is obedience, we win over flesh. 

To walk with the Holy Spirit gifted to us  provides peace and satisfaction in our hearts. The Lord promised he will carry our burdens and make right what is wrong but, we must choose to do so, he gave us free will.

Recently, I chose to do exactly this. Over a period of months there had been a whole heap of stuff troubling me. I prayed and asked the lord 

“what should I do?” 

I didn’t feel any peace at all about raising these problems with the flesh so, keeping them to myself I continued on my journey. 
It got to a point that I felt I was going around and around in circles. The same problems smacking me in the face over and over. Again, I prayed and again, the lord told me to trust in Him and He would sort it. 

So, I kept on, and on, and on, round and round and round, just like the Israelites in their journey to the promised land.

Suddenly! T’da the answer came.

He lifted me up and provided me an opening. Not only that he showed me exactly what he had been teaching me and why. I’ve never felt so strong, so empowered and so loved in all my days. I feel the warmth of my Heavenly Father smiling over me and the issues I faced are now but lessons I learnt.
Fret and worry will serve no purpose in our lives ever, only God can make good of these situations ….Trust him …. whole heartedly. 💕💕

How to get things done

You know those things on your to do list that you really keep putting off? I convince myself I will do them tomorrow, and guess what? 

I don’t do it!

I’ve come to realise that if I walk in guidance with the Holy Spirit, he takes over my will. The things I would normally think “ah, I’ll do it later” just get done, before I know it I look back and ta’da it’s as if someone did it for me.

Today, don’t think in your mind of all you have to do. Make a commitment to walk and talk with the Holy Spirit all day long, then see what you achieve! 💕💕

One God.

Making decisions for what to do next can be tough, we wonder if we are making that choice for our flesh or for our spirit.

I find this scripture a breath of fresh air. To me it shows me that God is working through me in all decisions I make. 

He had a perfect plan for me, He knows all that I am about to do and goes before me to pave the way.

I’m thankful today that I serve an all loving, all knowing Father, that will help me to continue this journey to the promised land.

Amen 🙏 xx

Perfect Love. 


The flight was delayed 6 hours, the door to the plane was frozen shut, in the UK with quite a bit of snow to look forward to. 

I wasn’t looking forward to going home. Having spent from 26th December until this day in beautiful hot sunshine, surrounded by Gods breath taking sights, sea, sand and lots of lovely reading material. 

Little did I know … God, had something much better planned in the big freeze back home.

I arrived home early in the morning and the place was thick with snow, the drive back from the airport took forvever, I walked in to my 2 bed town house that I shared with my friend, the house was hotter than it had been in Dominican, my house mate was a big fan of 30 degrees on the heating thermostat!

After lots of visiting family and story telling of my adventures, that night I was due to meet my destiny. This meeting was a perfect plan that I had no idea about. 

It was a God appointment.

Back in November, I had moved back to my home town, following a rough few years away. The street that I had moved in to also was the home of someone God wanted me to meet… again. Someone that I had no idea would impact my life as he did.

On 10th January 2010, I was reluctantly going on a date! A date that had been arranged following a phone call made on New Year’s Eve, a call that my spirit had prompted me to make, from thousands of miles away and a 4 hour time difference!

The guy that I was meeting was someone I had known for some time, 10 years to be precise, we had met when I was 17, he used to hang around me a lot back then and I had no idea that he liked me. In between then and now life happened and had been pretty cruel too.

But, God still had a perfect plan to unfold.

Following that date night, we went on to have a huge impact on each other’s lives, we built one another up, and together we became people that previously we had only ever dreamed we could be! 

We have just celebrated 7 years together and I’m happy to say we have a lovely life, with 2 boys, another on the way, work that we both love doing, some wonderful friends and family around us and a beautiful home.

This scripture is a perfect description of the plan that God had for us. 

That day, He evolved something quite magical, from 2 people that prior to this appointment were filled with misery, sin and fear.

He united us with the knowledge that were made for one another. 

We love each other dearly and have Jesus at the centre of our marriage which makes it perfect in every way. Together we have no fear, we have perfect love. 💕💕

1 John 4:18 – There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love. 



💕💕💕🙏 Amen 🙏💕💕💕

Can I really have all I desire?


How can you have it all?

But if you make yourselves at home with me and my words are at home in you, you can be sure that whatever you ask will be listened to and acted upon – John 15:5-8 MSG.

When we invite Jesus in to our lives he intercedes, he takes away all of the rotten fruit and branches that might contaminate the new fruits. We have His spirit residing within us, the same spirit that rose him from the dead.

We are made up of 3 parts, the conscious mind, the subconscious mind and the body. The subconscious mind is your spirit, this is a still small voice that suggests things that we quote often miss, ignore or play down because we think we can’t possibly do what it is saying, that’s the conscious mind telling us that we can’t do it. That’s the way we have been programmed to think by the world.

Our conscious minds are filled with worldly thinking, systematic thinking that programs us in a way that society deems fit. Whatever we believe about our own self image is what has been programmed in to us since birth, physical birth that is. 

The good news is that Jesus came so that we might live a life of peace, joy and abundance! 

If our thinking remains limited how can this happen? Spirit is telling us to go for that goal, flesh is the telling us that we can’t do it, we are worthless and nothing we do beyond our limited thinking will ever come to pass. If we allow this thinking to continue you know what will happen? Nothing. The same nothing we could spend a lifetime grumbling about!

Once we realise that we are in Christ and Christ is in us, that opens up a door to any opportunity you desire! 

For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength -Philippians‬ ‭4:13‬ ‭NLT‬‬

“Anything?” I hear you ask.

Yes! ANYTHING, according to the will of Christ.

“But how do I know what the will of Christ for my life is?”

The answer is right here in Philippians 4:8 – Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.

Whatever your dreams, goals or ambitions, they did not get there by coincidence. I encourage you today to start planning, imagine them in motion, take action and you will soon see those fruits developing ready for harvest. 😍

Dream a little louder.


Our subconscious mind is that of God, also known as our spirit. He made us with this creative faculty to go out in to the world and create glory for His name, He told us whatever we desire in our hearts (mind) we can have, take delight in the lord and he will give you the desires of you heart. – Psalm 36:4.

it’s not a secret and in its simplicity all we have to do is imagine that desire coming to pass, the word says; For as he thinks in his heart, so IS he. – Proverbs 23:7 NKJV

Look at Philippians 4:8 it says, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent for praiseworthy – think about such things. 

God created us in His perfect image, so imagine you’ve achieved your wildest dreams,  don’t worry about how you are going to achieve them, He tells us in Philippians 4:6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

I pray that we all dare to dream today, write it down, dream it, pray it, speak it, act it and receive it in Jesus name amen. 💕