My husband is constantly asking questions, it used to be a bug bear of mine, he was always interrupting my programmes to ask something I deemed as irrelevant! Now though, it’s something I quite admire him for. He’s brave enough and confident enough to ask questions at all times, he’s courageous enough to say when he doesn’t understand something and as a result he is always learning, growing in wisdom and knowledge at every opportunity.
I’m not quite sure what happened in my life to stop me from asking people their opinion or advice, there must be some reason I hold myself back but I’m unsure of it at present. This is an issue though, and God knows it.
He often uses my 6 year old to speak to me, He knows my ears will prick up when he speaks. A few days ago I was debating an issue with God, I’d prayed about it and was conversing with the Holy Spirit in my mind, the boys were sat on my bed watching TV when my eldest suddenly pipes up with ‘let it go!’ I knew that it was God speaking through him to me about the issue I’d asked Him about!
Without asking questions I won’t learn, I can ask God but He also wants me to seek advice from Godly mentors too, if not He wouldn’t of put them there, I can see by remaining quiet and fearful not only am I holding myself back I’m also holding on to pride, the fear of sounding stupid or asking a silly question is there because I don’t want to make myself look stupid.
This scripture also tells us that we can make our own plans, but the lords purpose will prevail. This tells me that I can take advice, I can seek counsel from the Holy Spirit and try to decipher what He means, but ultimately if I get it wrong He will make sure what He meant WILL be revealed.
After hearing a sermon last year about using our natural gifting for the His glory I decided I would start planning lots of fundraising events for the church. I was so excited to get on and do things for Jesus I made a couple of early day mistakes. The first mistake I made was to not pray about it, was this His will? The second was to not ask anyone else if they thought it would be a good idea, I ran in excitement to the leadership team and said “I’ve got all these plans to raise money and I’ve booked these dates!” Thinking back now I should have known not to go ahead by the look on my pastors face. You can guess what happened next!
The first event came around and whatever could go wrong, did go wrong! The rain came lashing down, the roof started leaking, the electrics were at risk of blowing, people didn’t turn up, it was a complete shambles! Needless to say I had to repent for my hasty decision and cancel all other events until I had the go ahead from the bossman! Note to self, never, ever make a move without dilligently praying first.
Have you ever noticed the pattern of gifts that are so eloquently sewn in to your nature? I find it fascinating. We are all made so unique, each with intricate detail, differences and personalities. I love to people watch and observe the giftings in others, I’m naturally an encouraging person so when I see a gift in someone I have to tell them. Sometimes I go a little over the top, but I just live in awe of the fabulous way God has made people.
Occasionally this can be a problem, I can spend so much time looking at others and their gifts I start to feel a little envy growing inside of me, comparison can be a slippery slope and a foothold for the devil to work with.
When I was about 13, I spent most of my school holidays staying with my Grandma, I loved it there and I had a friend about my age that lived next door, we both had the same name, I loved to call on her and spend time round at her house, she was so pretty, so confident and had lots of friends at school.
One summer that I spent time with her she revealed to me that she had started smoking, she asked if I did, desperately wanting to be just like her and accepted by her I said “yes!” We spent the holidays hiding at the top of the garden puffing away on vile fags, do you know I didn’t even like the taste! I’d even hang out of my bedroom window at Grandmas thinking they wouldn’t know, just to look super cool, I wasn’t, and I’m ashamed to say it took 22 years to break that stronghold on my life. Thankfully, Jesus saved me and I’ve been smoke free for just over 12 months.
In conclusion I take 3 things from this scripture that I’m working toward implementing in my life:
1.) Ask questions, be confident. There is no such thing as a stupid question, and if there is and you ask it, laugh! There is no fear in perfect love, Jesus wants us to approach Him like children, look at the questions they ask, I read somewhere they ask about 300 a day! Jesus wants us to gain knowledge and wisdom.
2.) Don’t rush in to things, Pray for purpose. We each have a set of unique gifts that God wants us to use but without prayer and knowing what He wants from us we will keep on falling down.
3.) Don’t compare myself to others, it’s fine to give praise for people’s gifts but getting hung up on their purpose in comparison to mine leaves an opportunity for the devil to catch me in a snare.
The truth is, we are each made fearfully and wonderfully and God wants to use each and everyone of us, united we are stronger.
The world tells us that to lay down our own lives and ambitions for others is weak, God tells us it’s not, and I chose Him over the world.
I choose to accept the unique gifts that He gave to me. Those gifts + a heart for Jesus, a teachable mind and I am set. God really will prevail with His plan for my life in His time, thank you lord. 💕🙏